Thursday, March 31, 2011

Rambling cat and Training Thursday

"She said you're a rambling man, you ain't never gonna change, you gotta gypsy soul to blame, and you were born for leavin." Zac Brown Band-Colder Weather

I never thought of myself as a cat person. I have this fear of being an "old cat lady", you know the ones that live alone, ya...some people have fear of spiders and snakes and heights...I fear being an old cat lady. Living alone with fifty or so cats. I definitely don't ever want to be one of those.

However, a funny thing has happened. I, apparently have adopted a cat. Yes, that's right. I have a cat. He has been showing up on my front porch. I say he, I don't really know what it is, but I refer to him as a he. I haven't really checked it out, if you know what I mean. Now, for the first couple of times he visited me (he sits in one of my chairs on my front porch) I ignored him. I know, I know..."how could I ignore a precious little animal?" Easy. I remember when I was little, my great Aunt Bessie, God rest her soul, would keep me during the day sometimes. I distinctively remember three things about her. 1. All she ever ate was Raisin Bran Cereal...which she made me eat. 2. She always, always had Braums candy and 3. I swear she had over 50 cats. Not her, neighborhood cats. She would cook hamburger meat and feed it to them. Everyday. If you were an alley cat, wouldn't you go to the house where you got fresh, cooked hamburger meat everyday? I sure would. So, my thought was, if I feed this cat, all his little alley cat buddies are going to just show up on my porch and then I am Aunt Bessie the sequel. No thank you. I love ya Aunt Bessie...but no.

Well, I gave in. That poor little thing, he obviously needed me. So, I started giving him some food. I even gave him a name. Miss football and I were talking and I told her I now have a cat and that I think he got hit by a car or something, because he's kinda crippled. She said, "Who is someone famous that walks with a limp, that we can name him after." For some reason, I said. "Tiny Tim." So, that's my cat's name Tiny Tim...TT for short.

TT...he hasn't been at my house in over 3 days. Sure enough, I decided to adopt a homeless cat, feed him, name him TT and then he disappears. He must be a man.

Miss Football said he's a rambling cat. Of all the cats in the world that show up on my front porch, he has to be a Gypsy.

Great news...TT is back. I gave him some food. I will make him a little nice bed, this way he can just come and go as he pleases. You can't make a gypsy stay if he doesn't want to.

On to Training...Progressive half marathon training that is. July 31st seems like a ways a way...but it will be here before I know it, and I want to be more than ready. So, my workout routine has stepped up a notch. Running everyday/weight training. I will get in shape even if it kills me...hopefully I will have killer toned arms, legs and abs after all this : )

I used to do the couch to 5K training, I stopped after I ran my first 5k last year. I love that program, it helped so much. I haven't really been an "avid" runner since that 5k, so I decided since it worked so well the first time, why not try it again. This way I can ease my way back into running. The weather has been crappy these last few days, so I am hoping that the nice weather that we are supposed to have come Friday and Saturday really happens and I am able to pound the pavement. I don't mind running on a treadmill...but there is something about being able to run in the outdoors.

If any of your runners out there, have some great training tips...I would appreciate it all : )


Wednesday, March 30, 2011

What I am loving today

Here is what I am loving today on this Wednesday

I am loving that our Girls Weekend 2011 trip to San Fransisco has become official. We are all registered for the San Francisco Marathon on July 31st. I seriously have never been more excited. Not only are we going to be running, but we have so many fun and amazing things planned. We are going to go to Napa one day, drive up the west coast the next. We have done the typical touristy stuff before, this time it's all about embracing the good food and wine that San Fran has to offer. If any of y'all have some favorite places for us to a sister out, please : )

I am loving that "officially" signing up for the race, gives me no more excuses not to run or work out. It is so on. Holla!

I am loving this little boy...who has grown up to be a big boy. A big 18 year boy to be exact. This cutie is my baby brother who turns 18 on Monday. This was taken when he was about 4 I think, I had went to Glamor Shots and he got to come too...he just couldn't resist posing. Haha.

Here is handsome baby brother

I am loving that if he only knew I had put those pictures of him from his "model" days, up here on my blog...he would not be happy with me..bahahaha.

I am loving these running tops from Under Armour

Women's UA Belle Grove Tank

and this Skort from Under Armour
Women's Escape Knit Skort

What are y'all loving today, go visit and link up!

Happy Hump day loves


Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Top 2 Tuesday

Top 2 Celebrity hairstyles

1. Of course I love Jennifer Aniston's hair. What girl in America doesn't? I am very much guilty of changing my hairstyle whenever she changes hers. I am loving her hair right now, in fact I have had a bob like this...but I want so badly to grow my hair out. It is taking everything I have to not chop my hair right off.

2. Carrie Underwood. I just love her hair. Her long hair style with the curls, is exactly what I am striving for right now. It's just taking awhile for my hair to grow : )

What are your favorite Celebrity hairstyles? Go visit Ms. Taylor here

Have a great day loves!

Monday, March 28, 2011

What really matters

Good we are with another Monday. It's a very cold and dreary day today. I woke up and it was 64 degrees in my house...I had to turn on the heater. What happened to all the spring like weather we were having? I guess maybe God didn't want the sun to come out today...I was going to blog about my weekend and how once again I am reminded that I am not 21 and therefore shouldn't act like one. However, when you get the chance to go out with your bestie and live it do so, sometimes a little too much. Fun times were had that is for sure. I was also going to blog about how having said fun times mixed with a few two many margaritas you tend to call/text people you really shouldn't and in that one second of tequila confusion/weakness you become that girl that just made a complete ass of herself.

Yep, I may or may not have been that girl. You not only wake up the next morning with the worst possible headache you have ever had  but you also have the feeling of, "OMG, did I really do what I think I did....crap!"

But then I got to work this morning and found out some very sad news; I realized that calling/texting a certain boy and making a fool myself, doesn't really even come close to the pain and suffering that people go through. That my embarrassment over something so just that. Embarrassment. I am also reminded that life is far too short and far too precious to let something so meaningless ruin your whole day.

My boss lost her aunt today from cancer. She fought to the very end. Having lost someone close to me from cancer, I can understand her loss. I never knew this lady, but I know she was loved and highly thought of. She was a daughter, sister, wife, mother, aunt, and a friend. Please pray for the family today as they grieve for her loss.

No one should have to go through this, but people do. Cancer is everything I hate and more. I participate in Relay for Life, which is the main fundraising event for the American Cancer Society. I am on the committee and am the Survivorship chair. We have our events coming up in the next few weeks. I have gotten so caught up in trying to make everything "perfect" and presentable so that my survivor event will be the best one doesn't matter. What matters is that I remember why I relay. My boss's Aunt, along with my best friend, my great aunts and many more...they are the reason I do this. They are the reason I volunteer my time, they are the reason I relay. 

This is what matters.

Hope everyone has a blessed day today, and please keep my boss's family in your prayers.


Friday, March 25, 2011

That's how we roll

Well, hello Friday...I sure have missed you and your friends Saturday and Sunday. TGIF everyone...hope everyone has a great Friday.

I have some breaking news...well, maybe not breaking; but it is exciting. SO EXCITING.

You've heard me mentioned oh, probably a thousands times my best friends...Miss Football, Honey and Bestie. Well, yesterday in a matter of five minutes and about 100 emails...we decided to run a half marathon and have a girls weekend trip in SAN FRANCISCO this summer. I am beyond excited.
Like, super words can't even express my excitement!! There aren't enough explanation points to show how excited I am....get the picture. Ok, good.

We have been to San Fran before, we went for the Fourth of July in 2008. Miss Football was interning at a law firm that summer and Honey,Bestie and I went for a visit. It was seriously the best trip. I fell in love with that city. I have been dying to go back and this time we already have some amazing things planned. Besides running the San Francisco half marathon(well Miss Football is running that, the other girls and I are doing the progressive marathon and 5K...practically the same thing,lol) we are going to drive up to Napa one of the days. This, I am sure, will not in any way help my wine addiction. That's alright...I am ok with that : )
Already this little trip and the fact I need to be able to run up the hills in San Fran...have you seen those hills...they are brutal, has gotten my booty back in the gym and running. Talk about some great motivation.
I can't wait to spend the weekend with these girls, running, shopping, going to Napa and anything else that we may get into...all and all it will be fabulous and let the count down begin : )

Have a great day everyone and a fabulous weekend!


Thursday, March 24, 2011

Allergies-1321354687 Me-0

Good Morning loves! It is a beautiful sun shiny day here in the 918...a little brisk for my taste, but hey...I am not complaining. I have no idea what is wrong with me this week, but I am just all over the place with my randomness...even more so than usual.

I blame it on the fact I have been doped up on Allergy meds all week. I tell ya, I love spring and all that comes with it, flowers blooming, green grass, the trees have pretty green leaves again...but with all this prettiness comes watery eyes, running nose, sneezing 20 times in a row, I can hardly swallow, I have to wear my get the picture. ALLERGIES!

You've heard of the song...OKLAHOMA...where the wind comes sweeping down the plain...well with this OK wind out of control and all this pollen everywhere, I am about to go nuts. Along with every other person who lives here, I am sure.

On a brighter note. You've heard of the Skinny Girl Margarita, right? Well, you have if you are as obsessed with Bethenney as I am. She was my favorite on NY Housewives and I just love her new show on Bravo. Well,  I have yet gotten to try her Skinny Girl Margarita. Why? Because like she said in her show, some stores in some states can't get production. That is until today. Just down from my office is a store that contains adult beverages, if you will, and I sometimes frequent it after a long, hard day at work, Get a bottle of wine and go home and relax. I am of age, you know. It's allowed. Well, I have asked and asked for them to get the Skinny Girl Margarita and guess what folks...they called me yesterday and they ordered it just for moi!!

How's that for customer service? I probably don't need a margarita with these allergy meds, but I can't let my people at the store down, I have to go get it. I am so excited to try it.

Oh, also on an un-related note...anyone out there use a self tanner? I am seriously so pale, I am practically casper. I need help, and I refuse to get in a tanning bed. I also don't want to look like an oompa loompa either. Been there, done that and it ain't pretty. So, if any of y'all could recommend a great one, I would love it!!

Hope everyone has a great day!


Wednesday, March 23, 2011


It's Wednesday...I don't have anything really important to say...just a few ramblings

First things First...Elizabeth Taylor passed away today. How crazy is that? She was 79 years old...she died from Congestive Heart failure. Honestly, I am not sure I have seen any of her movies, I know she was a great movie star...this girl won 3 Oscars...but really what I remember her for is her 8 marriages or so and her perfume...White Diamonds.

May you rest in peace Elizabeth Taylor!
FILE - This 1961 file photo shows actress Elizabeth Taylor in the film 'Butterfield 8' in 1961. Publicist Sally Morrison says the actress died Wednesday, March 23, 2011 in Los Angeles of congestive heart failure at age 79. (AP Photo/File)

Have you ever heard of the National Geographic Channel? I didn't even know this channel existed...mainly because I am so consumed watching unimportant shows like everything that is on Bravo and the Jersey Shore. I really need to probably spend my time watching TV that is educational and not how to get my GTL on.

This last weekend, I was at my Nana and Papa's house, and my Papa-who never used to watch TV by the way, except for Wheel of Fortune and that was just so he could watch Vanna White-has become a regular couch potato these days and he watches about three channels. The Game Show network, RFD-TV(which is basically a channel for farmer/ranchers) and the National Geographic Channel. He also watches the shows on either loud or extremely loud...I can still here the ringing in my ears now.

One day we watched this show called My Life is a Zoo, on the National Geographic Channel. Let me tell you, it is my new favorite show(if only I got this channel) it is about a couple that literally have a zoo of animals in their backyard and they have people come and walk through like a regular zoo. We watched an episode where they just bought a baby hippopotamus. Seriously, y'all baby Hippo's are cute. I have officially decided that if I get 50,000 dollars, some extra land, and a pin big enough to hold a hippo...I am SO getting one. For reals.

Did anyone watch Sunday nights episode of RHW of OC? OMG...first off...I love that show, I love me some original OC housewives, but did anyone else think it was slightly distasteful to watch Tamara and her boyfriend play a little rub a dub dub in the tub...if you no what I mean. I know its "reality tv" but come one people, have some decency, right? 

On another note for the housewives...I love how Alexis brought 2 suitcases for each person...I do that...I am definitely an over-packer. Better to have to much than not at all, I always say. You just never know how the weather will be, if you are going to go out to a nice place or a casual have to have a suitcase for all make-up and hair products, one for shoes. A girl just has to be prepared : )

Well, thats enough of my rambles...Hope everyone has a great day : )

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Basset love

Yesterday morning as I was getting ready I saw this video on the news. A basset dressed like Sherlock Holmes and thought, "I have got to see this!" So here it is folks...a basset running in slow motion dressed like Sherlock Holmes...I just about died, it is so cute

After seeing this it made me think of my own cute whiddle basset...Bentley Sue. Named after Dierks Bentley the country singer...not the car.

I went on a little road trip this last weekend and although she loves to travel, she is not very good at it. She whines...a lot. So, I left her with my Dad, poor thing...she probably didn't get any love or attention the whole time. So, today I dedicate this post to the life of Bentley loving, slightly overweight, happy, lazy hound dog.

This would be Bentley doing what she does best...sleeping

Bentley Sue and her little doggie...she literally takes it every where with her. She loves her puppy.

Obviously Basset's are notorious for dressing up

The pillows were all piled up on the couch and she took it upon herself to take a nap...when in Rome...sleep on a stack of pillows.

Hope this pictures make your day sure made mine : )

I love this dog!

Monday, March 21, 2011

Mini Vacay in a nutshell

Good Morning loves! Hope every one's weekend was fabulous and that you got to enjoy the great sunshine. I know I did : )

I am one tired gal today, but I had a great weekend for this tiredness today which I will share with y'all in a little re-cap. Here goes it:

My momma, Bella and I road tripped it to Southern OK to visit my two favorite peeps...Nana and Papa. Thursday was my Papa's 69th birthday, so we celebrated that with him and my aunt Jan, her husband and a long time friend of the family. Here is the birthday boy with his traditional German Chocolate cake

Please excuse the look on his face...I caught him off guard,haha.  That evening was filled with lots of stores, laughter and good times oh and not to mention amazing food. We had corn beef and cabbage(traditional Irish food...he is a St. Patty's baby after all, new potato's, salad and for dessert we had homemade peach cobbler(my favorite) with Vanilla Ice Cream...yes I had some despite my dairy was a special occasion after all and of course the German Chocolate cake. I realize that Miss Football is rolling her eyes at me right now, because I was supposed to give up sugar for lent...I may have failed.

The next day, I set out to make the Pioneer Woman's Cinnamon Rolls...All.By.Myself. Yep, I did it. They turned out beautifully and oh so yummy. Despite the fact that I blew up the butter in the microwave(how does that happen?) Sorry Nana.

The rest of the day was spent hanging out with Cousin Pam and her son Jackson. Jackson and I spent most of our Morning getting lost...note to self--don't take directions from a 13 yr. old. After he got us lost, I then got us lost somehow even more and ended up by a nuclear power plant...13 hours later ( not really but it felt like it) we finally made it back. We played board games, went fishing-where I was the only one to manage to get a sunburn and only on the right side of my body none the less...I have this very unattractive farmers tan only on my right arm. This pale chick needs to hit a tanning bed or some self-tanners. Quick.

I took this picture of the beautiful sunrise...I have no camera skills what-so-ever, so this picture doesn't quite do it justice.

Nana and I dominated at Domino's...we kicked my mom and Pam's bootie bad. I may or may not get violent and a little aggressive at playing board games or any kind of game for that matter...think Monica on Friends. Yep, that's me with board games.

Oh, I also kinda started a grease fire frying some onion straw worries I put it out. 

All in and all it was a great mini vacay spent with the ones I love the was so great to spend some good quality time with my Nana and Papa. I miss them dearly and wish we lived closer.

Bella had a good time too...but mainly she enjoyed the traveling

Hope everyone has a great Monday!!

Oh and P.S. my super awesome skills at picking basketball teams totally played off in the first round of March Madness...because I took first place. Booyah!!


Thursday, March 17, 2011

Happy Birthday Papa

First things first...HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!!

Yep, that's right, today is not only the biggest excuse of the year to drink beer...but more importantly it is my Papa's 69th Birthday. He is such a young fella.

This is my Papa with his #1 granddaughter...aka, me. He looks exactly like this, minus the hair and he maybe has a bit of a belly...don't tell him I said that : )

Oh, and HAPPY ST. PATTY'S DAY...hope y'all are wearing your green today, so you don't get pinched. When I was little, I would always say that I didn't have to wear green, because my eyes are green. It never worked for me, some how I always got pinched.

Have a great day loves!


Wednesday, March 16, 2011


I love that tomorrow morning I will be on my way to visit the best Nana and Papa there is....SO excited!

I love that the first day of Spring is this Sunday....I just love spring. Flowers blooming, the sunshine, the fact that the days are getting longer(even though I don't like losing that hour of sleep). I love spring-like colors...does that make sense? Pretty pinks, greens, yellows, blues...ahh : )

I am loving fedora hats lately...and I feel like I need one for the summer time....this one can be purchased at Francescas
Secret Affairs Fedora

Also, I am loving these brightly colored, gorgeous necklace and earrings also by Francesca....can you tell I am loving this store right now.

Tribal Earrings

Fishnet Earrings

Now, I just need to find some outfits to go along with these gems...which shouldn't be a problem, ha!

Oh and I almost forget...I am loving the fact that Miss Football and I are planning and saving our pennies for the Kentucky Derby 2012. We realized this last weekend how much we both want to go and then realized there is no possible way to attend this next year it is. I have always wanted to have a big hat and pretty dress moment, what girl doesn't. So, any and all ideas about the Derby are welcome : )

Derby 2012 here we come!!

What are you loving this Wednesday. Go visit Jamie and tell us what you are loving.

Happy Hump day lovelies!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Letter to Heaven

Today marks the 3rd anniversary since my best friend has been gone. It has been 3 very emotional years. I don't think you ever truly get over the loss of someone you love. You mourn for them somewhat everyday for as long as you live. They were a part of you, a part of your life, it would be impossible to not think about them in your day to day world. It gets easier with time...or so I have been told. In all actuality, this year seems easier.

I have heard that when you suffer a loss, whether it be just a friendship gone wrong, a break-up or in my case, the passing of a dear friend...sometimes writing a letter to that said person can help you move on. After DonEtta passed away, I don't think my head was in it to write how I was feeling down on a piece of paper. I now know I am in a place where I can do such a thing.

**Disclaimer** this is going to be way personal but that is what a blog is for, right? MY personal thoughts, MY personal feelings. Also, it is going to be fairly long...I apologize. So, with is my letter to my best friend.

Dear DonEtta,

Wow, I seriously can not even begin to believe that it has been three years since I have seen you. Three years since I have talked to you. I'd like to say a lot has changed in three years, maybe it has, sometimes I feel like I am just floating along watching everyone else live their lives. Watching everyone move on. I will admit; sometimes I feel guilty for being able to "live". I don't know why. It's dumb really. I just keep thinking back to my 22nd birthday, just a couple of days before you found out you had cancer. I will never forget the day you called me after you left the doctor. I was in our apartment, studying, and you told me that you had a brain tumor. I didn't know what to fact, I didn't say anything at all. We both just started crying. I hung up and immediately called the one other person that I could tell everything to, besides you, my mom. I think my mom thought something had happened to me, that is how hysterical I was. Everything after that just seemed like a fast paced blur. Surgery right away to remove the brain tumor and than it was Chemo and radiation. In the back of my mind, I always thought you would be fine. I never questioned that you wouldn't beat it. You were 24...twenty-freakin four. Just graduated college, I was about to graduate that December. We were supposed to go to the NFR in Las Vegas together, then we were supposed to move to Texas and be single and living it up with all the cowboys. Wouldn't that have been fun? Instead, I spent my weekends driving to the "other college town" where you were in the hospital. We would color, I would paint your nails, and have girl time. You were so worried about me. Worried about school, worried about the bills. You never once stopped being my "big sis".

The first day I ever met you, I thought..."Who does this girl think she is, walking in with her pink cowboy boots, and a bit of a swagger"...I call it the "DonEtta Swagger", all the guys would flock to you when you would do your swagger walk. I am still pissed off at you for not teaching me that by the way. Little did I know, we were a lot more a like than what I thought and before we knew it you were my big sis in the sorority and good times were sure to follow. I could go on and on about all the fun times you, me and bestie had. Favorite of all time was when you had a little too much to drink and you came home to the sorority house, I may or may not have helped you break up with your boyfriend that night and you may or may not have stripped down naked and jumped on Sara....and then woke up the next day wondering why you had a slip on and your head was through the arm holes. Funniest.night.ever.

I don't have many regrets, because what kind of life would that be if you focused on all your regrets. I will say one regret that I do have would be the night you wanted to take a road trip to Nebraska so you could see Cody...just one of the many suitors you had. Being the responsible girl that I was, I told you and Bestie that we couldn't do that. I had work and class the next day and you girls had class and work too and we just shouldn't drive all the way to Nebraska for a boy.  If you were to ask me to do that today, I would say your car or mine.

Can I just say that life hasn't been the same without you. I miss you so much and would give anything to hear your voice. I still have your cell phone number in my phone under "Big." I just can't bring myself to delete it. Oh, speaking of phones. Your mom totally has an iPhone. Can you believe it? Your mom also has a fb. Yes, a fb. I am telling you, she is so techno savvy you would be impressed. Don't worry, we haven't let her cut her hair again where she looks like a mushroom.

Thank you for introducing me to your family. I love your mom and dad and brother so much, and I am sure you know this...but you have a nephew. Cash Henry. He is adorable. He is a little over one. Looks just like John and is just as ornery I am sure. Your brother and Leigh-Anne moved closer to your parents and they are building a house there. It's going to be beautiful. Your dad is doing great, last I heard he went to the doctor and he was cancer free still. Isn't that great news.

I do have one bone to pick with you. Why am I still single?? Lets get real here, YOU are supposed to be looking out for me. Your up there in Heaven with God. You know me better than anyone and what kind of guy would be perfect for me...why aren't you and God working on this?? I need you to get with the program because I am not getting any younger here. Ok, look out for your little sis. You never did give me my study board, the least you could do is give me a husband. Just saying.

I know what you are thinking. " have made some pretty dumb decisions since I've been gone." Well, yes I have. You leaving was a lot harder for me to deal with than I expected. I have not made the smartest decisions. Like that one time I kissed this ugly dude on the dance floor in Texas because your favorite song come on the jukebox and I for sure thought it was a sign...that he must be the "one"...hahaha...I was sadly mistaken ( I blame the tequila) or the time I celebrated with a golf team that had just one their tourney and decided to drive myself home after celebrating to much...not smart. Thank you for looking out for me.

I have really needed you...if you were here, I highly doubt I would have ever dated  that Amish guy. Well, he is not really Amish...but he used to be. Still, if you were here you would have told me not to do it. You should be happy to hear that I didn't marry Fryer. You always said he wasn't right for me, even when my mom and bestie tried to convince me otherwise, I always remembered you telling me that he wasn't the one. I listened. In fact, he is getting married to someone else. Crazy, I know.

Logan is 18 and graduating high school. I can not believe it. He is quite handsome and I am so worried about him going off to college. He is going to be around girls like you and I. I know us and how we were...well, mainly how you were and I don't want him around girls like that...haha.

I think about you everyday. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you. So, don't think that you are forgotten...because trust me, you are not the forgetting type. Like I said, it's been hard since you have been gone. I have had my ups and downs,but this year I am not as sad as I have been. I will never know the reason you had to leave so soon, at least not while I am still here on earth, but I know the reason why you came into my life. You helped me become a better person. You taught me that its perfectly ok to just "be me" and to not care what other people think. You were such a confident person, your confidence just rolled right over to me. Most importantly you taught how to fight, how to never ever give up even when faced with unbelievable circumstances. Your faith never just got stronger and stronger. You showed me how to live your life with such grace even when you had no fight left in you.

I gained so much from being your friend. I will forever be grateful to you for introducing me to the best friends a girl could ever have, Miss Football,Honey and Bestie. If it wasn't for you, I would have never gotten to know these ladies, I would have never have known how incredibly strong a bond between four girls can be.  You are the sole reason the four of us know each other. The only thing good that came out of your relationship with Matt is that the four of us got to know each other and become the best of friends.

You know what makes me miss you the most? Is when I think about my wedding...whenever that may be. You were supposed to be there with me, helping me pick out my wedding colors, going with me to choose a dress, throwing me a shower, standing there with me as I marry my soul mate...but you won't be there and I won't get to do all those things for you either. We were supposed to raise our children together, live next door...have our children grow up to be the best of friends like we were. Remember when you were dating Chad and you were getting serious about him and we bought every bridal magazine one could buy? Then, when he was on his way over you made me hide all 20 of the magazines so he wouldn't get freaked out? Just like you had me hide boots and belts and jeans you bought when your mom was coming over. You know, after you died, I told her about you making me hide everything and you know what she told me. She said, she always knew what you had bought, because who do you think got the credit card bill? gotta love your mom.

I could go on and on forever with this letter, but I will save some for the next time I write you. I just want you to know that you will forever be in my heart. There isn't a day that goes by that you are not a part of me. Also, know that I am doing everything I can to help fight this monstrosity of a disease and I do it all for you. Thanks for being my big sis and now thanks for being my angel. I know you are enjoying it up there in Heaven, you probably have this huge closet where you can have all your custom cowboy boots and belts and everything...there is no doubt in my mind that you have already hit on John Wayne and probably Lane Frost too.

Love you D,