A full circle moment

"No matter the deviation, all things come full circle. You begin and end your journey in the same place, but with a different set of eyes. "~Jennifer DeLucy

Do y'all follow The Single Woman?

I've talked about her before...if you still do not follow her...you definitely should. She is also on twitter.

Which reminds me I really need to step up my game with this twitter thing.

I'm telling you almost everything she writes is genius. Girl is a genius. Miss Football also followers her, and there are some days were we'll go into full on discussion and analyze our love lives or lack there of from something The Single woman wrote that day. 

It's not all love and games with that lady, she is pretty genius about life too.

I mean life and love do go hand in hand.

She wrote about having those "Full circle" moments. Those moments where there comes a time or a situation that reminds you about a time in the past where you chose or did something differently.

I had one of those moments the other day at Wal-Mart of all places. I was in the produce section, picking out some strawberries, picking up the package, turning it around checking for damaged strawberries...because at 1.98 I am not paying for crap strawberries. While doing this, I heard a man's voice asking me, how can I tell which strawberry is right.?

I looked up only to recognize that super cute face and muscular arms of a guy I used to date. It's weird I didn't even recognize his voice. I haven't seen him in probably a couple of years. He looked exactly the same, cute dimples, piercing blue eyes..nice muscular arms...except something was different...the something that was different was the little 2 month old baby girl in the car seat and a wedding ring on his finger.

Darn the luck.

He was just as nice then as he was a couple of years ago. We had a nice conversation, you know the usual when you run into someone you used to date. The "How are you's", "What have you been up too"...oh, no I'm not married...still single...clearly I have no baby in the cart.

You know, that kind of talk.

We said our goodbyes, I told him congrats on both the marriage and his baby and wished him the best of luck and I moved on to check out the asparagus.

My full circle moment was this. 

Why did it not work out for us? Why was I so stupid? Why couldn't my 27 year old self have met him now, instead of my 24 year old self?

When were dating, I was also semi-dating this other guy. This semi guy was your typical player, only I was to blinded by his ability to get every girl to turn their head when he walked in, by the fact he had a great job as a professional in the PBR(not a bullrider), I was too involved in the pomp and circumstance and the flash that came from being associated with this dude....all of that pomp and circumstance seemed to have blocked his true assholeness. 

My "strawberry isle" guy is your typical good ol' boy. Super sweet, a lot of fun, great dancer, would do anything for me, still probably would if I needed him to, but he was in between jobs and didn't have that fancy truck or whatever excuse it was that I wanted to use. I was so caught up in wanting to be seen or whatever with this other dude...that I overlooked this great guy in front of me.

Real, real smart Lyndse.

I now know that at 24 I wasn't ready for a great guy like that...for some reason, I needed to get my heart broke from a player like the cowboy...because here, in this full circle moment...I know what it truly is that I want.

My 27 year old self wants the good ol' boy...who is perfectly ok holding a crying baby in his arms while pushing the cart in the produce section.